Bleh Posted by Sad Blogger , 23.7.12 at Monday, July 23, 2012, in

Lately I've been fixated on worrying that I might be mentally challenged. I feel like my whole life people have been particularly friendly to me despite how socially awkward I can be and how often I'm just babbling nonsense. In terms of my education, I've always been treated like I was slightly ahead of the curve compared to everyone else even though most of the time the work I would hand in was just a graffiti-like decoupage of ideas about nothing. In what I've always considered intellectual conversation, people act overly enthusiastic when responding to my contributions. And I know that in grades two through four, I was taken out of my regular classes to attend a class of maybe six other kids in which we drew pictures and talked about what we did at home and what we like to watch on TV and whatever else. My mom always said it was class for brighter kids, but I really have no evidence back up to that claim.


I dunno. I've spent the past few years exercising a spectrum of feelings of superiority compared to my peers and other people in general, but in the last month or so I've just started to wonder if I've had any right to. I mean probably as a general rule and as a decent human being, I don't. But in accordance to my way of thinking, I just have to question whether my narcissism, smugness, egoism, and eccentricity have all be justified.

Ugh. I just did some research on Narcissism and now I just feel ashamed and gross. I don't know how to end this and I don't know what the title should be. So I'll just call it how I'm feeling.


Here's some words to take the place of a salutation,
Sad Blogger

PS - the music sharing post below didn't work out at all like I had originally crafted it. All the sharing sites I was using only worked if I was signed in. And obviously I'm not going to make people sign up on the sites just to hear a couple songs. I'll figure it out.